This is one of my ongoing goals, and probably the one in which I am lacking at the most. If you have read my post titled “Measuring Up” you know about my recent struggle to capture my progress on a few of my endeavors. These fall into a category I have called perennial or ongoing. I guess you could say these are qualitative items rather than quantitative. Well, through some comments left by my readers it dawned on me that I need to break down such goals in a way that will make it easier to track my progress. So here’s where I start.
I am a Christian, and congregate at a very warm Non-Denominational Christian church. The group of people who go to this church is much more diverse that in mostly every other congregation around this area. I truly appreciate that. It is a very welcoming and committed group of believers. The pastor is very down to Earth and non-judgemental.
I didn’t grow up as a Christian. Actually, my spiritual upbringing was very unstable and confusing. I was raised by my mother and maternal grandmother. Mami (my mom) is a non-believer. My grandmother on the other hand was a true fanatic of the Jehovah Witnesses faith. I can remember as far as being 4 years old or so and going out with her knocking on strangers’ doors every Saturday to bring them the Word. All of my cousins and I took Bible study with grandma. She was pretty strict about it too. My mom always wanted to give me the best education she could afford; that was very important to her. Therefore, she sent me to a few private schools through my elementary, middle and highschool years, including one Catholic school ran by nuns, and an Evangelical school. Needless to say, I was confused.
For many years I became a non-believer as well. It was about 5 years ago that, through good friends and family members, I found my way back to faith. My first congregation was very warm, and very much on fire about the Lord, but very legalistic. This turned me away as I want to bring my kids to a church where they feel welcomed, not judged, and where they are thought about the love of God and his Word, not about religion. I’ve found a good place at my current congregation; my kids like it and are enthusiastic about attending “kids church”. Most importantly they are getting to know God and his Word in an active way, not through endless sermons.
My challenge is remaining consistent (I have the same challenge in other areas of my life as well). This one can be especially trying though. In my defense, I am a single, working mom. It’s not easy. I feel like I’m constantly juggling and there are always a couple of balls that end up on the floor. That said, I would like to grow in my spiritual life, as well as to guide my kids in their spiritual paths. I’ve identified 3 basic steps I would like to take in order to begin the pursuit of this goal:
- Pray once a day: I usually pray with my kids. My reference here is to praying on my own.
- Get to church once a week: I go through stages where I want to get there at least twice a week and be involved in different ministries, but I only end up burning myself up and dropping everything, then I don’t go at all. It’s just too much on top of all the responsibilities I have. So I finally decided to give myself permission to go once a week, and that will be ok for now.
- Read the Bible more: I just don’t do much of this one lately; which is absurd since when I do, it provides me with extra strength and wisdom for everyday life.
I know, this post is getting too long. Sorry 😦 Now, as you might have already noticed, I tend to drive myself nuts with small details. My thoughts at the moment are: Should I be keeping track of these activities on a calendar or log or would that be too much and perhaps cause me more stress? Any thoughts on this? Suggestions greatly appreciated!!!
P.S. Thank you for reading to the end 🙂